sábado, 19 de enero de 2013

A letter beyond complexity.

Dear Walter.

As you may know Walter, I just can´t get my eyes off of you, you may say I´m impulsive, and all those little things that make me who I am, but just to let you know, I run this huge scenario, and you are in every scene with me. That´s for sure something I cannot deny, like your perfect ability to give me vitality and the strenght to carry on. You see, I´m not miserable Walter, and that is remarkable, because for a person like me, miserable was the addecuate word to describe me. Why am I writing this to you? well, I´m not even sure, maybe this dramatic explanation of myself will make you understand how much I see, how much I love, how much I care.

Walter, so many times  have  I wished to see you at night,  or at daylight for a walk, and possibly have a cup of tea in one of the beautiful and illuminate corners of this city, and when that wish came true, I was in ecstasy, so nervous of course, but so complete; sorry if this sounds so corny, but I guess  since I´ve met you I´m not the same person as before , I´m different... but the kind of different that you are ok with. Have you ever cried of happiness? I hope you had, cause it´s wonderful, I enjoy crying because of happiness, it makes me believe that I´m not as bad as everyone think I am. Furthermore my dear Walter, what makes me believe more than anything in the world, what makes me have hope, is that I have you, and that, THAT my  excentric man, is all I need to continue. I have my own goals of course, and for those I found the hope in myself, because is something for me, from: me to: me, but your company suits perfectly with this attitude of mine.

I know the word "forever" very well, I know its origin, and its significance, but thanks to you, I´ve learned to give this concept an accurate   meaning, one that is only for me, for us, this meaning recreates itself inside my depths, and dances along my strongest beliefs, so yes, you are one of my precious beliefs. Words are my favorite thing in the world, I write to feel better, I read to imagine, to navigate, I speak beautifulness to you, because words are beautiful, but then your eyes appear, and honestly, I found myself all confused, because I know that nothing in this universe can beat your ravishing eyes.

These simple expressions are part of something more complex, and you have to believe me. It´s just that sadly, when I´m extremely happy, I can only think in everyday words, and I say sadly because I would really love to keep writing this letter with more suitable words. Right now I feel this rush, this motivation, this uniqueness from where I belong, I feel every detail around me, I feel you. I finally found someone with who I can be myself, no double-dealing, just me. Let me take a couple of minutes to smile now.
That´s it darling, for now, it´s time to live, to live exquisite adventures by your side, writing feelings it´s lovely, but to experience them is very distinct, it´s past 6 in the afternoon, and I have a date with you, with all this I got a tremendous desire to have a cup of tea by your smile´s side. Remember always that our place it´s out of  here, our place dances along the universe, although I won´t deny that the coffee shop in the corner is gorgeous, anyway, we know that our place will never be seen by anybody but us. Walter, we belong.

With love
Catherine.